My mind is running
frantically in all directions, but hitting the same wall. Time is pouring out like sand in hour glass, if I have to do something; it has
to be now and fast!
Then…It hits me like bolt,
Oh! Would it work! I am hesitant for
a moment. But do I have any other plausible option?
All the lessons I learnt,
all the practice sessions I underwent in my last meditation retreat are opening
instantly in the book of my mind. I see a glimmer of hope, how false it may
prove eventually. Only my heart prays it doesn’t. Gathering every bit of
courage and wit I start reciting Aum trying to concentrate in the centre of my
forehead that I usually do during my mediation sessions. Trying to calm myself
despite the circumstances I train my mind towards a single goal.
To my surprise and relief,
pressure drops a bit. Hang on…I tell myself…everything
is not over. A new hope of survival rushes in fills my every pore.
The opposite force is as
unyielding. And the flashes come running again…I see that priest’s chants
gaining fervour, his body swaying back and forth briskly. The encircling force
again picks grip, pinning me down further. I sharpen my focus on 'Aum', mentally
repeating the word with total attention.
I can sense two forces
colliding head on…
And then…it breaks…as if a
glass casket blew into pieces, sending shards flying far and wide. I am
immediately released…a sudden gush of air hits my lungs hard. I tremble…move my
fingers, my neck, my feet…I am alive!
Still breathing
laboriously I sit up with a jerk. Everything comes alive. The mellow light is
pouring through curtains. Aarush is sleeping blissfully unaware, his soft
snores now audible. I experience an odd mixture of disbelief, confusion and
relief. What was that? Was I dreaming or
hallucinating! How could it be real? It all happened in few moments. A
moment ago there was a vicious force, tangible, palpable, threatening to crush
me under its weight and now everything looking so normal as it never happened.
My head has become a whirlpool of questions, ready to drown me in its currents.
It is no use waking up Aarush now; anyway
there is little he can do. It would be very difficult to explain what
happened. When I am staring at doubts clouding my mind, Will he believe?
---xx----oo----x----oo----xx---
It is been two day since
that strange, spooky incident happened. I haven’t talked to anyone in the house
about it. I know they will laugh it off. I wish I could do the same or at least
could push it out of mind for few sane seconds. I am going through every
routine mechanically with a heavy lead placed in my head. My eyes are droopy
for lack of sleep and meditation sessions disturbed. I realize I am getting wary of concentrating,
for the fear of those visions, the fear so real that I can feel it breathing
down my neck.
Still the strangest part
is…that I do feel a pure energy coursing through me. I fought and thwarted that
power…whatever it was. It’s oddly victorious…still mind keeps oscillating
between extremes.
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This is intriguing ... somewhere it portrays the victory of good over evil, but then again, I am eager to know more about these forces that you encountered !!!
ReplyDeleteYou will know it soon, thanks for reading:)
DeleteThat was a gripping out-of-the-world experience Meenakshi. Sometimes our mind plays games with us...
ReplyDeleteOr is there something else! Stay tuned Reshma.
DeleteAt one point I almost went into a trance. Very well written. Definitely waiting for part II.
ReplyDeleteHmmmmm Very interesting meditation experience and with such force. What are you afraid of most? Offer it to the fire of your meditation. Could it be a kriya? Or the release of some old samskara? You pushed through it and that is great. :-)
ReplyDeleteEliz
The protagonist is searching for answers, let's see what does she find.
DeleteThe description about meditation was awesome . I am speechless that you have described meditation to an extent that one really feels he is meditating. The picture besides adds flavor to it. Wonderful.
ReplyDeleteThanks Vishal, I am answering this comment a bit late and know by now that you do meditate.
DeleteI am happy you could relate to it.
Very enigmatic beginning.You described the state of your emotions so vividly-i could empathize with them.Next part will throw more light -i am anxious to read it.
ReplyDeleteThanks ma'am! I hope you like the remaining part.
DeleteLoved the way you phrased the tussle between you and the other force.. so vivid.. so intriguing.. use of words impeccable..
ReplyDeletewhat's more in store i wonder.. I WAIT..
Thanks Deepak, I am glad you liked it!
Deleteenjoyed it Meenakshi. waiting for the next!
ReplyDeleteThanks Diwakar!
DeleteThe description seemed almost like an exorcism! Not sure how the story will end... kinda creepy!
ReplyDeleteYou will know soon! Thanks for reading!
DeleteSurreal!
ReplyDeleteThanks Deepak!
DeleteAfter reading through your experience, I felt as if I am not real. It evoked a strange feeling, which I have never experienced. before. It took me a few minutes to come out of the trance. Waiting eagerly for the conclusion.
ReplyDeleteThank you for such special words. It made the whole effort worthwhile.
DeleteGripping!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Nandini!
DeleteSeems like an inner evil fighting against the good and then...the good comes our to be victorious...it can be hallucination as well...will wait for the next...part...!!!
ReplyDeleteIt is still a mystery, but you will know it soon.
DeleteNice one
ReplyDeleteSounds scary and exciting!! Waiting for the conclusion!
ReplyDeleteStory is keeping even me in suspense, let's see how it unfolds!
DeleteWhat an exciting post Meenakshi. Waiting for part-2.
ReplyDeleteThanks Fayaz!
Deletewouldn't say anything right now and make a fool of myself. let's wait for the next part. as far as your writing is concerned - magical is all i can say.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Deb! It is really encouraging!
DeleteIntriguing enough that we will wait for the tbc..!
ReplyDeleteDo stop by my write - Woman Hitler. Love to hear from you *cheers*
Thanks Kappu, Will read your post for sure.
DeleteBattle between two forces! Thank God! Good force won!
ReplyDeleteWe all like to live in that utopia, don't we! Thanks for reading!
DeleteGripping tale! Liked it! Waiting for the next part :D
ReplyDeleteThanks Rohan!
DeleteThe Victory was thrilling...
ReplyDeleteAmazing ... :)
Thanks Shamik!
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